hurricanes oei!!!
wow... been so long since i posted and the last post i saw was abt tht farewell. hmm.. rain helped us much... we are still tgt.. aint over yet.. =DD at least u all get to join the bluejays... i dont... my mum wont let and i am too lousy anw...
but tht's not the whole point of the post. i am not gonna complain abt not being able to train with u guys anymore cos my mum is depriving me of tht side of my leisure and passion. i just wanna sae to everyone on the team tht i love u guys and i cant bear to go and i promise u... no matter how much my mum hates me to come back on the team... I WILL BE BACK.
hurricanes have been the bestest part of my nan hua life. my joys, my tears, my smiles, my sorrow... my everything has been growing tgt with hurricanes... only hurricanes have seen how i have changed throughout all 4 years in the team. i cannot say how happy and glad and grateful i am to be on this team tgt with u guys. my life in hurricanes have been in my mind and will alw stay there.
i rmb most of the sec 4s were forced to join softball when we were in sec 1... us.. being the cute innocent little sec 1s joined without saying anything... lolx... but i am glad we did. i am glad we did cos we became the hurricanes sigui family and we met daddy and coach... and now with aunty bird and coach jiamin and ms saw and mrs choong... we dominate the field.
i rmb in sec 2 when i was made the official first choice pitcher. i noe i aint tht good, but i was proud of myself all the same. i was proud of myself and proud of the team when we defeated nygh and won the zone champions. we are all growing.. growing tgt as a family.
i rmb in sec 3 when i lapsed into tht long period of depression... isolating myself from everyone else. for wht reason, i cant yet tell. but i noe tht it has alw u guys being ard with me... i was stressed, because i noe tht i am lagging behind. i cant tell the rest of u are catching up. i am happy for u guys, but somehow i cant bring it across to u ppl. i was selfish and cared for my own feelings. i am really sorry if wht i said hurt u guys.. i nv meant to. i nv will have the intention to do tht.
this year... i got benched most of the time. for the first time in nan hua life, i nv particularly enjoy the whole competition. half the time i was on the bench, feeling lousy and tht i wanna help the team to win on the field and yet i cant do anything cos i am not even in the diamond...
the last match is tmr... half of me want the match to finish asap... the other half of me stringly wishes tht it will never be over. i want our hurricanes to be tgt 4eva and eva and eva. i want to be on the team. i want to be back on the diamond. suddenly, i have a thousand and one thigns i wanna learn abt softball... i wanna learn to play in the positions i have yet had the chance to play in. i wanna play and learn as much as i can... but the time just doesnt allow me to do tht.
i am sure the happy memories will alw be carved inside our hearts. we will alw rmb each other alw... we will still see each other in school, wont we? i love u guys. *hugs*
